Sabtu, 14 Januari 2006
this is going to be a pretty random post, because i don't really have anything specific to talk about. do you ever look back over your life and think, where did the time go? i feel like i'm standing still and time is running full force past me. lorin and i will have been married for 3 years in may. this year, we will have been graduated from high school for 6 years and will have been together for that same amount of time. if someone would have told me 10 years ago where i'd be right now, i'd have smacked them and called the police. i never would have imagined i'd be married to the guy that picked on me relentlessly in 6th grade. i never would have imagined i'd be living in howland -- my sister's probably the only one who would understand that. i never would have imagined so many of the things i'm walking through right now. sometimes life scares the crap out of me. i guess what i'm trying to get at is it's easy to look back over your life and wonder how and why things happen the way they do, but what good would it do? i could very easily get lost in the past, but i know there is something in front of me that is so much greater. i have gotten so frustrated lately with people bad-mouthing our area. it's not like i don't see what is in the natural. there's a lot to doubt looking through our eyes. but, deep in my heart i know that our area is called to something amazing. no one in the world has to believe it with me, although i know some do, but i know that God did not create warren just to abandon it. when lorin and i got married, we where dead set on moving to south carolina. we would have done anything to just go. but, in submitting to God's will, we realized that's not where we were supposed to go. we are right where we're supposed to be. bottom line, if you hate our area, that's fine, but wait till you see what i'm believing for.